i've been acting so weird this week or probably the whole month.
and the past days were been tormented by my own selfish thoughts.
it was kinda late this morning i got my answer to my question.
the answer to my confusion or perhaps the best solution to it.
i ignored this before not thinking that this would not matter at all
but i was proved wrong by my own judgment
surely things could get better somehow if i stay this way -
a little bit confused but composed nonetheless.
it is more rational to stick to what i am supposed to be
than to change my course of being
i am not betraying anyone, not myself, for this decision
this is who i am and this is how i should be.
again i'm typing